I am supposed to be induced tomorrow. My Dad and stepmom and my mom have all made it into town. We had a great evening with some delicious mexican food and now I am hoping to get some sleep before calling in at 5:30am to get a report time for the hospital.
Today, when I was there for my last monitoring appt–they were completely full and had two girls in labor in the waiting room. I half expect them to tell me to call back on Thursday but I think I might waver between gratitude at the reprieve and losing my mind at this point. I am pretty anxious for it all to be over and for us to have the peanut and be done with the whole pregnancy thing.
Morgan was a wreck this evening. He is so in tune with what is happening and he could not fall asleep. I wanted to put him in bed with me so badly–but I also wanted to let him sleep in the morning when I am sure Jeremy and I will rival a sit com as we prepare to leave for the hospital. Jeremy is squeezing in one last day of moonlighting today and things keep cropping up and keeping him from getting home. Of all the rotten luck! Usually he’s here with us by 8-9 and tonight things will run a bit later. Hopefully I will not be driving myself in the morning!
In my attempt to reassure Morgan this evening, I just ended up crying. I could see this tense little face in the light of his crib soother and it broke my heart. My poor first little baby! We went over that Daddy is a big brother and that Mommy is a big sister and that it’s a pretty cool thing to have someone to play with and someone to look up to you. Then my mom and I sat in his room and sang lullabies until he started to smile and laugh again.
I hope that the presence of his grandparents will keep him cheered up tomorrow. I’m going to miss him like crazy until he comes to visit me after the birth. He’s too young to be allowed in labor and delivery and too sensitive to every expression on my face. He knows every moment that I am in pain or scared–we’re just really in tune to each other. He’s such a compassionate and sweet little man. I have to work very hard to make sure that I project that everything is great!
Goodnight my friends–I will have Jeremy post pictures/updates when we have some news.