My friend LeAnne is leaving tomorrow. Her husband has completed his army committment and they are moving home to Phoenix. I am so very happy and excited for her….but at the same time so sad to lose one of my dearest “in town” friends. Military life is like that…every year or so you say goodbye to those you come to love like family. LeAnne was there for me through the adoption and through Jeremy’s deployment and it will be so hard to know that she isn’t just a few blocks away anymore.
They also have a new baby. He is beautiful–tiny and sweet and it makes me sad that Jeremy and I still have not gotten to experience having a newborn in our lives. Every time I hold this little one, I get a huge lump in my throat and tears in my eyes. It amazes me how I can feel such joy for my friend and such sorrow in my own heart at the same time!
We’ve been trying to get pregnant for 6 months, now. I am determined not to turn this into a fertility blog–but I am becoming anxious as another month rolls by without a positive result. What a stressful process!
Morgan is growing more and more each day–leaving babyhood behind and becoming such the little man. I love it that he still gets into bed with us each morning for a few hours and thrill to the smell of his sweet baby hair on the pillow next to me and his smiles when we wake. I cannot believe that I was perfectly content for 31 years without being a mom. Everything feels different now and I would love another baby. I would love for him to have a little brother or sister to grow with and to love.